no sarcasm or mockery tonight folks.
i learned a lot today from a good friend about myself. i have so many learned practices and habits to overcome. it was eye opening to me. i mean at 58 you think i would know. now they seem so obvious like a wart on a witch's nose. the challenge to me is can i change. i mean at 58 how many are hard core, if any. i am scheduling an appointment with a shrink tomorrow. need to work on me and adjust my drugs to help. the challenge we all face is once we know what needs to be changed, is can we change? especially at 58. i mean life patterns. how deep are the groves in my life? some people live for challenges but this one is special to me.
friends who are not honest with you when it is not easy to hear are priceless. i do not want to just white wash the problems. i want to get the root and get it out. i still have a lot of good years to live, i can't live them the way i am now. i see that now. if the tree of this truth had been any closer i would have a splinter in my nose. now is the time to change.
i will be forever grateful to my friend. because few people get a chance to get a new lease on life at 58. i know going in i must be honest with myself and the shrink and i will. i must follow their instructions and i will. some people invest in art classes or new hobbies. i am investing in me. besides i can't afford art classes or a hobby.
thank you friend....forever you will be remembered. i am truly indebted.
