about 4 yesterday i got a migraine, too the rest of the day off. then woke up at 3:30 this morning coughing and my throat was really hurting. i usually sleep on my side, well i had to sit up until i fell asleep. i must have fallen asleep with my mouth open or something. then buddy wanted to walk all over the bed. i am tired, real tired this morning.
i need to learn how to let things go. again learned behavior. my mom carried hurts from her sisters until she passed. she didn't attend some of their funerals and they lived in north carolina. i remember hearing her talk bad about them over things done to her years ago. if you keep hurts and don't forgive the offender you only do harm to yourself. the bible says we must be quick to forgive. wow i could have done without the word 'quick'. if we don't then they turn to grudges. those are more difficult to over come.
i like to think of myself as being rather keen in watching people and picking out their habits and favorite phrases. perhaps this is where i learned how to imitate the behavior of my parents, primarily my mom. our family was so spread out, age wise, and there being no sense of 'family' also was unique. plus hearing my mom say things about my sisters, things that should have been shared in private. but then again she talked about her sisters the same way.
i am going to post later today about my anger issue.
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